Lost Cause

I know that I said it wouldn't be any more chances or changes of heart.

You hurt me bad, so I let you go and went on my seperate way. The only way I thought i'd get rid of all the pain. But I can't get you outta my head. And when I lie here lonely and cold its you I want in my bed. Visions of you invade my waking dreams. With empty arms I hold you here with me. All I think about is you and what we did when we were together, and making more memories. You said you'd always be there, that you'd never forget me. But I went back to where I thought you'd be, but you had already up and left me. You invade my dreams and when I wake it makes my heart ache. Because there is something I've forgotten and it's a feeling I just can't shake, steps backwards that I just can't retake. Statements, words ejected, feelings hidden and emotions rejected. Things said that you or I never expected, once spoken you can't reset them. I thought your love wasn't worth it, because when I did what you wanted I still didn't deserve it. You refused to understand that true love is imperfect, no time left to rework it. Bringing all these hidden treasures to the surface, but they hold no value anymore, effectively worthless. I thought to come back and make amends as if all that went before never existed, a figment, something to pretend. Give us a fresh start, a blank slate, unwritten story on a fresh white page. But you won't be the pen to my ink, you won't cross this divide you've severed your link. So it is at the precipe that I stand, at the unsung brink. So though I stand here different from who and what I was before, of you and I there is no more. No final match we have come to the end of the war. Uneven is the field but squared is the score. So its with little faith that I cling to something too far gone. I tried to keep my hands on a love so flawed.  Funny how I finally realized that I hold dear a lost cause.